Sometimes I wish I would fall asleep and never wake up, negative much on a special day like this?
I can, but I shouldn't. Hang in there, I've survived 2 dozen years, just got to hang on tight.
I wish people are able to tell when things are not going too well in my head.
I tend to get into this dark place every once in a while, and it's getting so tiring to push myself out of it.
Am I placing too high expectation towards my fellow human kind? Aren't anyone out there able to turn these feelings around?
It's just a combination of the things people say and expect me to feel all better that irritates me more. I hate how the tables would turn and I'd have to give in and be the stronger one. Can't I be the pampered one every once in a while. Huffs, it's difficult to pin point what's wrong when everything is.
Birthdays, I've always love them. But this time around it isn't the same.
It used to be special. I am afraid it won't be anymore. I can hardly remember the last, before I had someone to share it with.
Yes, it is difficult to walk alone after walking a mile with someone.
But then again, it isn't the end. It will be just another day.