3rd March 2012, 2:30AM

Plans are made to be changed,

I wish I had taken more thought into this fact.

24th February 2012, 12:48AM

And I'll just smile, and make believe I don't feel a thing.

- Mayday Parade

but no one knows me like you do,

i need you to know that.

17th February 2012, 11:02PM

well said.

with that, will be spending the weekend at HATYAI :D

awesome-ness.

9th February 2012, 1:48AM

I've been this crazy perfectionist for almost my entire life, so much that it is only recently that I've learnt to let go a little, live the moment and trust that everything will work out okay.

Taking control of everything was what I am good at. I never thought that there is anything wrong with that, until now, as I take a step back and re-evaluate our entire relationship, I realize how flawed my execution plan was. I was the problem.

This time last year, I was stressing out like a crazy person, trying to make a reservation for dinner at a nice restaurant for Valentine's day. I remember feeling so disappointed and convinced that the day would suck even before it begin, when I failed to get a table. I just wanted everything to be perfect for us. I was disappointed that I had to do it all alone, I was so tired and frustrated. But the day came and it wasn't too bad, we found this tiny Japanese place and dined there as every other place had a waiting crowd. It was perfect the way it was. He never wanted any restaurant reservations, that was what I wanted. I was probably that much of a selfish person, everything was always about me.

Trusting people is what I am worst at. I never believed that anyone could make me happy, unless I do something about it. I couldn't trust him enough when he said he got it under control.

This year for a change, I'll let go and trust that everything will be fine. It's so much easier this way. Thinking of all the years I've been stressing out and not learning from any of them just tickles me. Probably I am just that flawed.

30th January 2012, 2:24AM

I've been really lenient with myself lately. Haven't been giving much thought of the future and whatnot. Had given up on long term planing, afraid of it actually.

I've been cutting myself a lot of slack lately. Splurging, with less concern of the days to come. Doing stuffs that makes me happy, even if it is just for a slight moment.

All over the place, that's my state of mind lately. At times I feel like I need to snap out of this, but at some other times, I'll say fuck it, all that matters is a happy me (:

I'll just keep my worries for tomorrow then.

29th January 2012, 11:01PM

been playing in my head the entire day.

hated the original MV, it had some The Wanted vibe to it -.-

Boyce Ave ♥

18 January 2012, 1:16 AM

I guess it's fitting that I end up where I've left so many others. I only wonder if the world will be a better place without me.
-Dexter



I must say, things are getting so heavy lately. I am starting to doubt my ability to hang on.

Marathon-ing Dexter, and nom-ing lasagna. How so little time changed my entire life. Is it ever possible to replace them, memories?

It's no use. Everything still looks gloomy from my end.

15 January 2012, 3:13AM

favourite.

So why are we all ignoring the melancholy elephant in the room?
- Cleo




was reading this article in the magazine, and yes, admitting to loneliness does make me feel weak and I don't like that one bit.

Loneliness breeds negativity. I can relate to that, I guess.

12 January 2012, 12:59AM

but we both know that I'm not that strong;
- Mayday Parade




It's the 12th.
but it doesn't seem to be of any importance anymore,
the thought of it is making me sad.

10th January 2012, 1:02AM

sigh.

feeling a little bit emo nemo :(

hungry maybe. should have nom-ed dinner after gym. fml.

7th December 2012, 11:55PM

use to be

reality starting to really soak in

need.to.channel.feelings.away

4th January 2012, 11:47PM

I'm having this sudden urge to get myself new gear,

to invest in photography again x)

A yummy Nikkor 35mm f/1.8 perhaps.

Oh wells, it'll pass.

4th January 2012, 12:35AM

i thought you said forever over and over;

2nd January 2012, 12:20PM

It's the journey, not the destination, that matters.

And so, I plan to make the most out of my life journey in this new year. For what's worth, Happy New Year peeps.






Today I realized that I am able to make a significant difference to someone else's life, I wish someday someone else would do the same to mine. Self-centered, much?